Happy 15th Jennifer Yang!wow. Jenn Ko sent me the picture of this. . . well click it. Daniel Henney's not bad I must say.
Anyway, I realize that I haven't posted a real post in ages and I probably have no readers anymore, not that you'd be able to tell from the amount of comments I get anyway.
So, what's a new school year without a new crush, huh? not a very fun one ^_^ . I'll bet you can't guess who it is. Friends first now though. My stomach is still churning a little after the relationships I've had this summer. I either feel guilty or disgusted bleh, (about different people, not everyone, sorry).
It feels like a lot of girls have gotten boyfriends but not a lot of guys have gotten girlfriends. haha, just shows the selection at our school. ANYway, nobody really looks different, even though a lot of us feel changed on the inside. Even though summer isn't a real vacation as I see it, I've always felt like when we come back everything's supposed to be different and new and better. But it never is. In a way it's comforting but I feel like I'm holding out on this hope that one year I'll be really motivated to do all of my homework right after school and I'll go to sleep early and every morning I'll be awake and actually want to school. But I'm not sure that could ever happen. I'm still tired and I don't understand every single thing right when I learn it and I'm not getting perfect scores on everything. If we wre at different schools that would probably be possible for most people but it wouldn't mean the same thing. up until a few days ago I wasn't sure whether or not I should accept the fact that school will never be fun or interesting or not entirely nerve-wracking.
I don't know how, but right now I feel like school could be all of those thing I wish it were. Things we're learning aren't sooo hard, and I've realized that putting sleep before work isn't a bad thing as long as you don't completely slack off. I'm so excited that Samulnori has started again and I'm learning more. We have
Cardigan too, which is the new "urban culture magazine" at our school, which I'm photo editor and a writer for (but whom Monica neglected to add to our staff list). At leastthis year I have teachers who can teach and have very casual classes: Chem-Salzman, Math-Krilov, Health-Drvostep, Spanish-Garnica, English-Roundy, GS-Fish, Phys. Ed-Gaudenzi.
These are the rules I'm going to follow whether I want to or not:
1. Give yourself at least 3 hours to do homework.
2. the reason people procrastinate is that they're perfectionists => forget about perfection and do the fucking work and it'll be good anyway.
3. Stop letting your mind wander during class (because mine alllwaayyss does every 10 minutes and I have no idea what people are talking about).
4. Stop worrying about problems with friends/guys because you can't fix most of them. If it is a problem you have to fix, do it quick, otherwise, just go with the flow. Taoist all the way.
5. Try to finish your work but go to bed before 10 so you'll have energy in the morning and won't look like crap. Also, do exercises like yoga in the morning so that you're all stretched and woken up before going out.
Well, I guess that's all. I won't have to post again for a while. I have a question though: Do you feel like you've changed? Or is this year just the same as the last?
